My Thoughts . . .

I thought that i'm the only one who miss you,
Might actually everyone else misses you too,

I thought that i'm the only one who think of you from dawn to dusk,
Might actually others does the same,

I thought that i'm the only one who have you deep in my heart,

Might actually everyone else having you deep in their hearts,

I thought that i'm the only one who want to talk to you everyday,
Might actually others feels the same things too,

I thought that i'm the only one who save our pictures together,
Might actually others are doing the same things,

I thought that i'm the only one who laughed like a silly when i remembered about how funny we were last time,

Might actually others does the same too,

I thought that i'm the only one who want you always,
Might actually everyone else does the same thing,

I thought that i'm the only one who feel insecure when it comes to you,
Might actually everyone else feels the same,

I thought that i'm the only one who get jealous when it comes to you,
Might actually everyone else gets the same things,

I thought that i'm the only one who scared to loose you,
Might actually everyone else scares too,

I thought that you are very special for me,
Might actually everyone else feels that you are very special for them,

I thought that i'm the only one who really care for you a lot,
Might actually everyone else does the same.



Well,

I thought that i'm very special for you,
Might actualy everyone around you are very special for you,

I thought that i'm the only one who you scared to loose,
Might actually you scared to loose for everyone,

I thought that i'm the best for you,
Might actually you take everyone around you are the best,

I thought that i'm the only one who you want to talk to always,
Might actually you want to talk to every others else always,

I thought that i'm the only one who you cared ,
Might actually u cared for everyone else,

I thought that i'm the only one who you miss,
Might actually you are missing for everyone else,

I thought that i'm the only one who you gave "kiss-emoticons",
Might actually you give to everyone else,

I thought that i'm the only one who you save our pictures together,
Might actually you are keeping everyone else's pictures.


What ever my thoughts and feelings are,
I will always be right here waiting and loyal to you where others will eventually leaves you.
I am asking my self where and what i am for you i found out that i should never ever think about that question ever. . .
I didnt know what are the reality and the truth, so im having my thoughts even though it hurts because i just cant take my mind off of you.


-mza-

That someone . . .

The sparks you ignites,

Made me to wonder my whole life,

Things that you thought nothing are really something to me,

I grow fonder on my way home today,

Half of the winston's blue box ive smoked,

In the train i was stil wondering,

Listen to my adele's musics as i always do,

I Reached home and lay down, lay down, i fall asleep

I saw you in my dream,

You was so happy,

I was talking to you but i didnt get the attention that i want instead you left me and had fun with your new one,

I was wondering inside my dream,

I woke up and cried,

Remembering you of how u being so special for me,

Im guessing that youre not having things like i do,

I cried not because of you laughed and getting happy,

But i was sad because im not the reason of yours,

And im just sad, ive tried to move on even after so long time,

Im still who i am. . .

I wish you always want me like i always want you

-mza-

Written on : Thursday, 15 January 2015, 6.00-6.45pm, an, Turkey. 

Angel From Heaven

We have met in this beautiful world,

Where billions others lives in this world but we were fated by God to be closer,

Im so happy to know you,

Infacts you're my One, the Best One,

The one that i never want to get seperated, far away, miss you this much,

Im so happy to know you,

I can forget everything and all the problems,

Youre send by the god i believed youre an angel,

Seeing you, talk to you, your face, your laugh, your smells everything on you are just perfect in my eyes,

Im so happy to know you,

I dont know what state am i into you,

And I dont know what state am i for you,

What i know is that youre someone that is very special for me all the time,

I'm so happy to know you,

Infact youre always be the first page in my book together with my family,

Youre someone that i always chasing after you,

Scared of losing you. . .  

-mza-

The Fonder

The time when im gone, 

The time where im not by your side, 

The time when I didn't contact you, 

To see whether you're chasing after me or not, 

I keep putting hopes, 

Sure you will come after me at any situation, 

Ive waited for times, 

Days to weeks, weeks to months, 

Summer to fall, winter to autumn, 

Keeping my hopes, 

Ive said things not to condemn you neither and away from the sense to detest and loathe you my dear babe, 

Its because i just want you so much and miss you as always, 

To make you realise that you have changed,

And youre just changed,

Im full of grief and grow fonder by days. 

-mza-

Written and drafted ; 1.17pm , in the train to Bahcelievler, friday 16th jan 2015

Get Here - Oleta Adams

You can reach me by railway
You can reach me by trailway
You can reach me on an airplane
You can reach me with your mind

You can reach me by a caravan
Cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here
Just Get here if you can

You can reach me by sailboat
Climb a tree and swing rope to rope
Take a sled and slide down the slope
Into these arms of mine

You can jump on a speedy colt
Cross the border in a blaze of hope
I don't care how you get here
Just Get here if you can

There are hills and mountains between us
Always something to get over
If I had my way, surely you would be closer
I need you closer

There are hills and mountains between us
Always something to get over
If I had my way, surely you would be closer
I need you closer

You can windsurf into my life
Take me up on a carpet ride
You can make it in a big balloon
But you better make it soon

You can reach me by caravan
Cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here
Get here if you can

I don't care, I don't care
I need you right here, right now
I need you right here, right now, right by my side
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah

Yeah yeah, oh
I don't care how you get here
Get here if you can

Cardiac Necrosis

Cardiac Necrosis 

When the cardiac dies,

When the cardiac no longer works as it used to be,

When the cardiac no longer pumping its best loving partner since in the womb-blood,

When the cardiac dies, 

Nothing that we can do,

Trying to save the cardiac organ, 

The major power of the body, 

Tries to give the cardiac it beats, 

When the cardiac dies,

Nothing we can do, 

Calling the best surgeon so save it, 

Sophisticated technology at the sides, 

When the cardiac dies,

Nothing we can do, 

Look up to the sky high above, 

Asking God The Almighty for help,

Save the heart for the last time of chance, 

Asking God The Almighty for help,

To have its life back together with the long love-blood, 

And the answer is,

Millions chances had given,

But that One stopped the cardiac itself, 

Does not take good care of it, 

When the time comes,

When injuries present on the cardiac, 

The heart stops as it used to be,

Its too late, 

Never ask the God Almighty why didn't help,  

Ask yourself what you have done before ask others. 

-mza-

Adele - Hiding My Heart

This is how the story went

I met someone by accident

Who blew me away

Blew me away

And It was in the darkest of my days

When you took my sorrow and you took my pain

And buried them away, buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

You'll disappear one day

So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Dropped you off at the train station

Put a kiss on top of your head

Watched you wave

And watched you wave

Then I went on home to my skyscrapers

And neon lights and waiting papers

That I call home

I call that home

I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

You'll disappear one day

So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Away, yeah

Woke up feeling heavy hearted

I'm going back to where I started

The morning rain

The morning rain

And though I wish that you were here

On that same old road that brought me here

It's calling me home

It's calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

You'll disappear one day

So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I can spend my whole life hiding my heart away