Changes With Un-Resolved Feelings

It was one day that i met you and we got to know to each other. It was a real fast to happened - we're from somewhere else but we met meaningfully. For me i praised to the Lord, i'm hoping for you too. You're someone that i've been looking for my whole life, My Partner, My Babe, My Laugh, My Gossip and you're My Everything. Often dreaming of you in my dreams. My feelings for you always a limitless. 

Also it was one day, 
You told me your decission - i contempelate it, 
And you left - i regard it,
Although i incessantly hope you would turn-off your decision and be with me,
But the folks say " time is the answer" - i ponder it,
And now i can see it - Thoroughly.

It changes me alot, im no longer the old me. I barely to make peers as much as i did last time. I barely being extrovert no more. Im just someone new with pure introvert and feelings alot. I'll take it if you would label me with some sort of plaques but its the feelings. I didnt blame anyone, or you, but it is me who is emotionally freak. You're my first time, first one and never gone through this ever. I've no idea what about you on your first time and first one - before you met me. I know you're much stronger, happy demeanour and unswerving emotion - as i observed, an extrovert.

But do you know that, Ive been looking for you my whole life? And even until now you're My One, The Best One, The One that i really love. Although you had found your someone new. 

Do you know that,
I love to see you,
To see your face,
To smell you,
To kiss you,
To hug you,
To laugh with you,
To talk over things even if its nothing,
To sleep with you and wake up seeing you next to me,
To pillow talk with you,
To eat together, 
To cook together,
To sing together,
To share clothes together,

To put clothes-on for you,
To travel together,
To go out together,
To take photo together,
To stay in the house together,
To stay in the room together,
To do whatever with you together is a divine - i couldnt describe more,
You know, that i love you alot, 
You know, that i miss you alot, 
And its never changed for forever - my miss, my love.

Well, what i had was absolutely phenomenal for me and i hope for you too. But thats not it! It saddens me sometimes - might always, that what i had with you My Babe, isnt really enough of complacency to myself. It was a very short of time, i've been asking why. I hope we could be together and enjoy like the last time where Only you and i. And untill for atleast im ready or my last breath. In fact, I've been always to think if only i could pay so that the previous memories of us could always be brought back. i would definitely work very hard just to bring those back! Always its my heart, my efforts and attitudes that shows. 

Mza, 24th december 2015, winter, akhir shoober, tanta, 3.44am

Someone Like You By Adele

"Someone Like You"

I heard that you're settled down

That you found a girl and you're married now.

I heard that your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?

Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you too

Don't forget me, I beg

I'll remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

You know how the time flies

Only yesterday was the time of our lives

We were born and raised

In a summer haze

Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you too

Don't forget me, I beg

I'll remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares

No worries or cares

Regrets and mistakes

They are memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you

Don't forget me, I beg

I'll remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

Never mind, I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you too

Don't forget me, I beg

I'll remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

For you or not for you is still for you.

The winter - has arrived,

Dehydration is what i can feel,

But its not the water nor the foods,

Its the love - for you, 

The miss for - for you,

The craves - for you, 

But you're miles away, 

Dehydration continues,

I fell asleep in tiredness, 

With feelings and hopes - just for you,

But now its gone,

And i remember why theres no dehydration no more, 

Because its you, whom i met in my dream last night,

U gave me water when im in dehydration,

And im sure its the pure water from heart, 

Now it runs through my stream thoroughly,

I love you and miss you with every of my single breath. 

December 5th 2015

Feelings

I meet peoples in my life,

I've met the one i've been looking for,

The story starts,

Feelings bloomed as the flowers of springs,

The longer the feelings, the deeper it goes,

Things happened,

But i have hope and faith,

People moved on,

I'm who i am,

Always the same, i did not moved on - nor meeting new people, nor friends, nor mate, nor buddies , its just no one.

I've realised everything but i stay quiet, i just love the feelings of in love with you.

But somehow overthinking gets over everything,

Still i love the feelings of loving you.

5pm thursday 10th december 2015

Mza