An Alexithymia

I was in your car, 

We were together and it was really closed, 

I always love that moment, 

I always love that moment, 

Where only we two, and no one else, 

Its just us, 

We were heading to the town, 

And having fun, 

Im at the seventh heaven, 

I always love that moment, 

I always love that moment, 

Where only we two, and no one else, 

Its just us, 

I put my insecurities far away, 

My jelousy, 

My miss, 

And everything of my feelings for you far away,

Except ; love and bless

But later i start to wonder how nice if we are not far apart anymore,

will this stay last forever untill my last breath, 

Or is this the last one, 

We had fun - really, 

We were tiffined - fully bloated, 

We were heading to the train station, 

We had that laughter together, 

Then i hugged you, 

I kissed you, 

We shakes hands, 

I want to stay much longer with you, 

I want to stay a long more time with you, 

But i know, 

We had that faked laughs before i left, 

Please babe tell me its true, 

It was the hardest when everytime ive to leave you, 

That waves when we were waving at each other, 

It was a faked one, 

Please babe tell me its true, 

I still remember your smile while you were waving at me, 

You kept to drives away, 

It hurts me, 

I pretended to be alright  so that you won't be sad, 

I faked my waves, 

Because i never want to leave you.

I will always love you, 

I will always love you. . .

-mza-

Written and drafted : 3.02am , sunday january 18th 2015 , on the bed in bedroom at an, turkey