Tell Me If I Was Wrong

Babe, 

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you're having fun with others,

Because you actually stood up and thinking of us.

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you're having with someone else, 

Because you're only with me always.

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking that you're mingling with someone else, 

Because you'd never do that.

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking that you have already have someone else to replace me,

Because i always hope that you're not looking for others after me. 

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking that you're all better without me,

Because you're waiting for my return again. 

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you have already moved on from first we were apart, 

Because you're always reminiscing of US-want us.

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you're not missing me while i do,

Because actually you do miss us. 

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you not to love me while i do, 

Because actually u do love me. 

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you are going to find someone else, 

Because actually you never ever. 

Babe, 

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you are singing for others always,

Because actually you sing for me everyday in you heart for me. 

Babe,

Please Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you are not proud of knowing and having me, 

Because actually you exposed to your world and friends.

Babe,

Babe,

Babe,

Please and Please,

Im Begging you to Tell me that i was wrong for thinking you of what i am thinking now, 

Because you are here all by me,

Because you love me, 

Because we are always together. 

Do You Know That ?

Hye peeps, its been a very awhile that i did not update my blog nor post any entry. Anyways, hope you all good and great always. 

Do you know that its so crazy to love someone very deeply hard but then you are not sure whether that one is loving you back and as deeply hard as you or not. But what you have is that Hope and Faith in the bottom of your heart. 

Do you know that when you love someone you automatically missing that one every single day from the moment you woke up till you closed you eyes. And even then you dreamt about your love one frequently in you nights. And just like what im doing now. I had my sleep and i woke up swiftly grab my fhone to see whether you texted me or not. And always thought and hope that you're just by my side always, and i love it. 

Do you know that you drives me to a very insecure feeling when i reminiscing about us. And looking at your pictures. Just so bloody insecure. You see its not that i want to control you or whatsoever but i simply cannot let and see someone that i really love and care to be with someone else. To get closed with others. And ofcourse its crazy because everything were starts originally as a friend. Because we've known each other i guess for quite a long period so i guess i know it very well what drives me into insecurities. Its all because i miss you, i love you and i want just you. Plus imagine if im wishing you right by my side, when i say i love you, i miss you and when everytime i say i have only you and be loyal to you BUT BUT a very unfortunately if others were saying and wishing the same things too. Plus its a very sad pain IF to see you responds to those.

Do you know that you've changed me to be someone that's not even me. You're just perfect for me and im sure and always hate that the idea when others are thinking the same as i do. Because everything that i do, i go , i eat and et cetera from dawn to dusk it leads me to only just YOU. For instance if im having a vacation with my friends i will just wish of how if you are here and taking photos of us. And even if eat something good i'll be wishing how great and lovely to share with you. 

Do you know that you are my everything. i just love you because i just love you from my heart. I dont love you because of your money, i dont love you because of your looks, i dont love you because of your status and position but i love you because its you and im very sure that and i promise you that no one could and would change your place in my heart. And i know that if i love you for something but when that thing eventually gone it'll be the reason for me to leave you. But im not that one type. I just want you , i just need you and i just love you because i really love that it is you.  

You're someone that i really trust more than anything. And i hope someday you will know what it feels like, to love someone, to be so clingy, possessive. And etc. Because im here loving you for forever.

And dont feels wrong though because im being simply me. :)) 😘😘😘 hehehe

Imy babe.

-mza- 

Sunday-monday 1100pm-1am, 29-30march,2015

in my room n bed , awl shoober, tanta

An Alexithymia

I was in your car, 

We were together and it was really closed, 

I always love that moment, 

I always love that moment, 

Where only we two, and no one else, 

Its just us, 

We were heading to the town, 

And having fun, 

Im at the seventh heaven, 

I always love that moment, 

I always love that moment, 

Where only we two, and no one else, 

Its just us, 

I put my insecurities far away, 

My jelousy, 

My miss, 

And everything of my feelings for you far away,

Except ; love and bless

But later i start to wonder how nice if we are not far apart anymore,

will this stay last forever untill my last breath, 

Or is this the last one, 

We had fun - really, 

We were tiffined - fully bloated, 

We were heading to the train station, 

We had that laughter together, 

Then i hugged you, 

I kissed you, 

We shakes hands, 

I want to stay much longer with you, 

I want to stay a long more time with you, 

But i know, 

We had that faked laughs before i left, 

Please babe tell me its true, 

It was the hardest when everytime ive to leave you, 

That waves when we were waving at each other, 

It was a faked one, 

Please babe tell me its true, 

I still remember your smile while you were waving at me, 

You kept to drives away, 

It hurts me, 

I pretended to be alright  so that you won't be sad, 

I faked my waves, 

Because i never want to leave you.

I will always love you, 

I will always love you. . .

-mza-

Written and drafted : 3.02am , sunday january 18th 2015 , on the bed in bedroom at an, turkey