Do You Know That ?

Hye peeps, its been a very awhile that i did not update my blog nor post any entry. Anyways, hope you all good and great always. 

Do you know that its so crazy to love someone very deeply hard but then you are not sure whether that one is loving you back and as deeply hard as you or not. But what you have is that Hope and Faith in the bottom of your heart. 

Do you know that when you love someone you automatically missing that one every single day from the moment you woke up till you closed you eyes. And even then you dreamt about your love one frequently in you nights. And just like what im doing now. I had my sleep and i woke up swiftly grab my fhone to see whether you texted me or not. And always thought and hope that you're just by my side always, and i love it. 

Do you know that you drives me to a very insecure feeling when i reminiscing about us. And looking at your pictures. Just so bloody insecure. You see its not that i want to control you or whatsoever but i simply cannot let and see someone that i really love and care to be with someone else. To get closed with others. And ofcourse its crazy because everything were starts originally as a friend. Because we've known each other i guess for quite a long period so i guess i know it very well what drives me into insecurities. Its all because i miss you, i love you and i want just you. Plus imagine if im wishing you right by my side, when i say i love you, i miss you and when everytime i say i have only you and be loyal to you BUT BUT a very unfortunately if others were saying and wishing the same things too. Plus its a very sad pain IF to see you responds to those.

Do you know that you've changed me to be someone that's not even me. You're just perfect for me and im sure and always hate that the idea when others are thinking the same as i do. Because everything that i do, i go , i eat and et cetera from dawn to dusk it leads me to only just YOU. For instance if im having a vacation with my friends i will just wish of how if you are here and taking photos of us. And even if eat something good i'll be wishing how great and lovely to share with you. 

Do you know that you are my everything. i just love you because i just love you from my heart. I dont love you because of your money, i dont love you because of your looks, i dont love you because of your status and position but i love you because its you and im very sure that and i promise you that no one could and would change your place in my heart. And i know that if i love you for something but when that thing eventually gone it'll be the reason for me to leave you. But im not that one type. I just want you , i just need you and i just love you because i really love that it is you.  

You're someone that i really trust more than anything. And i hope someday you will know what it feels like, to love someone, to be so clingy, possessive. And etc. Because im here loving you for forever.

And dont feels wrong though because im being simply me. :)) 😘😘😘 hehehe

Imy babe.

-mza- 

Sunday-monday 1100pm-1am, 29-30march,2015

in my room n bed , awl shoober, tanta