Busy or Priority ?

1) Hmmm Busy or Priority? Intresting topic isn't it? Priority to who? What is the meaning of busy? And how about priority? Are they the same? Nope...!!! Absolutely nope...! 

2) Busy? Are you sure that youre busy? The whole day? I mean from dawn to dusk? Untill you dont even have a space for yourself to be free? Woww....Woww!!! Then u probably the busiest person ever in this world morethan either The President or Prime Minister.

3) By the way, is it true that you're busy? Or you just busy with this one particular person? While you have a million years to talk to others? Then you have to decide and ask your self again and again before you can give an appropriate reasons and answers.

3) Well honestly i dont think laah kan there's someone in this world who's so damn busy untill no time to text someone which who always wants to text you, calls you and telling some stories that i think that person wanted to share with you.

4) You know what?  Its actually like this, when you are bored to text with that one, you have no topic what to talk, when you feels everytime you talk to that one u got annoyyed, u dont have that feeling to talk, or you feels that this one person is so overly attached to u or perhaps u got stressed when u talk to this one Or maybe some other reasons which only you knows it or maybe with someone who you always talk to, knows it. LoL

5) Somehow, i dont really believed that when people say that they're busy 24/7. I think its more like you are so lazy to talk to and ofcourse its so inapprropriate to tell someone that you dont want to talk to them so you just go with late reply since you can read your latest notification from the screen of your fhone just in order to runaway from being detected as "seen/read". LoL ( dont think you're smart enough). Eventually, after decades you go and reply by saying that "im busy".

6) Again, Busy or Priority? Maybe the reality are that you annoyed or hate or lazy or whatever your feelings are. 

7) The way how i think is so simple. I strongly believed that if you set someone as your priority more than anything else even with your cheap busy reasons can be gone within seconds. Its true right?!

8) Hey but wait priority to someone? Who? Then you gonna have to ask yourself, your heart, your soul, your mind, and keep asking who is that one other than your family.

9) For me as in priority tab discussion,  

A) No one ofcourse family, 

B) Secondly, studies n future, 

C) Well thirdly , my bestfriend/ bestofrientico/ BFF/ or what ever you called for your bestfriend. (Sometimes my bestfriend is at second place and oftenly shifted between the second and third) Hahahaha. Only then comes the rest of the things kannn?! I can swear to you that if these people call me everyday, text me every second, whether its dawn or dusk needing my help, i will and whatever it is in this world i surely wont get mad/annoyed/ stressed/ hated / or whatever lah i wont. Im just happy honestly.

10) so 👆 up there, i guess i've stated clearly about what are the priority. Which i gave to my family,studies and my one bestfriend. I just doesn't care whether i have no time or have time, whether im hungry or full, whether im in deep lovely sleeping or in the insomnia state, i will always put them at the highest right above me. This is how i managed , how i set things. :)) 

11) So, for those who always giving off reasons this and that i guess you're just simply wasting your time. Just be a straight forward person, say it what you feels, what you need to say without taking care of what others feels, because you have to live life to the fullest kann, just say it. 

12) Oh yeah ofcourse never forget that, in this beautiful life there will be an asshole which i belived that this asshole didnt do well in relationship or in his fucking life and he starts contacting someone's special or else and tries to say things which will make you separated or a little bit spacey than someone you should get closed to. And funny this asshole he starts to know some secrets and talking bad about someone or others. 

13) My hope, choose whether are you really busy or you just stop and dont give the priority u used to give. 

-mza-

An Alexithymia

I was in your car, 

We were together and it was really closed, 

I always love that moment, 

I always love that moment, 

Where only we two, and no one else, 

Its just us, 

We were heading to the town, 

And having fun, 

Im at the seventh heaven, 

I always love that moment, 

I always love that moment, 

Where only we two, and no one else, 

Its just us, 

I put my insecurities far away, 

My jelousy, 

My miss, 

And everything of my feelings for you far away,

Except ; love and bless

But later i start to wonder how nice if we are not far apart anymore,

will this stay last forever untill my last breath, 

Or is this the last one, 

We had fun - really, 

We were tiffined - fully bloated, 

We were heading to the train station, 

We had that laughter together, 

Then i hugged you, 

I kissed you, 

We shakes hands, 

I want to stay much longer with you, 

I want to stay a long more time with you, 

But i know, 

We had that faked laughs before i left, 

Please babe tell me its true, 

It was the hardest when everytime ive to leave you, 

That waves when we were waving at each other, 

It was a faked one, 

Please babe tell me its true, 

I still remember your smile while you were waving at me, 

You kept to drives away, 

It hurts me, 

I pretended to be alright  so that you won't be sad, 

I faked my waves, 

Because i never want to leave you.

I will always love you, 

I will always love you. . .

-mza-

Written and drafted : 3.02am , sunday january 18th 2015 , on the bed in bedroom at an, turkey

IT'S ALWAYS YOU . . .

When i think of you,

My little mind and thoughts gets started, 

Never know why,

Ive tried to know it why,

But only my creator knows - The God Almighty,

Im jelous of other peoples, 

When thinking of you with them or ones, 

The one who might be replacing me, 

Me - im the one who's always waiting for you, 

Tiredness, annoyingness, boredom feelings that i never gets, 

Im jelous with the moon, 

The moon which sees you at night, 

Was it you alone,

Or someone else with you,

Because i want to see and be with you all nights,

Im jelous with the stars, 

The stars that makes you happy, 

You're happy when it glitters, 

Because i hoped no-one but me who set you with flying colours, 

Im jelous with the sun,

The sun which brights your days, 

Sees you during your days, 

Lucky The sun - luckiest , 

Kisses you fully and Left not even an inch on your body, 

Because i thought im the one,

Im jelous with your sheets, 

It Touches Every part of you when you fall asleep,

While i keep these close eyes on my empty pillow, 

Waiting for your weights to keep it warm, 

Because I thought im the one,

Im jelous with the water,
The Water which cleans you,
cleanses you,
It relaxes you from your hectic days,
Because i thought im the one,

Im jelous with your pillow,
It relaxes your head,
It makes you to loving it more the mornings you woke up,
You feels heavy to left it all alone - your pillow,
Because i thought im the one,

Im jelous with your mattress,
You always finds it great for yourself - clinomania,
Where you can forget all things,
Where u gets happy to see it,
Because i though im the one.

-mza-

😶

YOU

I want to know how far can you runaway from me and giving off your reasons,

I want to know how long can you give off your reasons,

I want to know how long can you be for not talking to me,

I want to know how far can you live your life without me,

Eventually, i have seen you have had gone too far beyond my thoughts, 

But- And i'm still here the one who's waiting for you always.

-mza-

My Thoughts . . .

I thought that i'm the only one who miss you,
Might actually everyone else misses you too,

I thought that i'm the only one who think of you from dawn to dusk,
Might actually others does the same,

I thought that i'm the only one who have you deep in my heart,

Might actually everyone else having you deep in their hearts,

I thought that i'm the only one who want to talk to you everyday,
Might actually others feels the same things too,

I thought that i'm the only one who save our pictures together,
Might actually others are doing the same things,

I thought that i'm the only one who laughed like a silly when i remembered about how funny we were last time,

Might actually others does the same too,

I thought that i'm the only one who want you always,
Might actually everyone else does the same thing,

I thought that i'm the only one who feel insecure when it comes to you,
Might actually everyone else feels the same,

I thought that i'm the only one who get jealous when it comes to you,
Might actually everyone else gets the same things,

I thought that i'm the only one who scared to loose you,
Might actually everyone else scares too,

I thought that you are very special for me,
Might actually everyone else feels that you are very special for them,

I thought that i'm the only one who really care for you a lot,
Might actually everyone else does the same.



Well,

I thought that i'm very special for you,
Might actualy everyone around you are very special for you,

I thought that i'm the only one who you scared to loose,
Might actually you scared to loose for everyone,

I thought that i'm the best for you,
Might actually you take everyone around you are the best,

I thought that i'm the only one who you want to talk to always,
Might actually you want to talk to every others else always,

I thought that i'm the only one who you cared ,
Might actually u cared for everyone else,

I thought that i'm the only one who you miss,
Might actually you are missing for everyone else,

I thought that i'm the only one who you gave "kiss-emoticons",
Might actually you give to everyone else,

I thought that i'm the only one who you save our pictures together,
Might actually you are keeping everyone else's pictures.


What ever my thoughts and feelings are,
I will always be right here waiting and loyal to you where others will eventually leaves you.
I am asking my self where and what i am for you i found out that i should never ever think about that question ever. . .
I didnt know what are the reality and the truth, so im having my thoughts even though it hurts because i just cant take my mind off of you.


-mza-

That someone . . .

The sparks you ignites,

Made me to wonder my whole life,

Things that you thought nothing are really something to me,

I grow fonder on my way home today,

Half of the winston's blue box ive smoked,

In the train i was stil wondering,

Listen to my adele's musics as i always do,

I Reached home and lay down, lay down, i fall asleep

I saw you in my dream,

You was so happy,

I was talking to you but i didnt get the attention that i want instead you left me and had fun with your new one,

I was wondering inside my dream,

I woke up and cried,

Remembering you of how u being so special for me,

Im guessing that youre not having things like i do,

I cried not because of you laughed and getting happy,

But i was sad because im not the reason of yours,

And im just sad, ive tried to move on even after so long time,

Im still who i am. . .

I wish you always want me like i always want you

-mza-

Written on : Thursday, 15 January 2015, 6.00-6.45pm, an, Turkey. 

Angel From Heaven

We have met in this beautiful world,

Where billions others lives in this world but we were fated by God to be closer,

Im so happy to know you,

Infacts you're my One, the Best One,

The one that i never want to get seperated, far away, miss you this much,

Im so happy to know you,

I can forget everything and all the problems,

Youre send by the god i believed youre an angel,

Seeing you, talk to you, your face, your laugh, your smells everything on you are just perfect in my eyes,

Im so happy to know you,

I dont know what state am i into you,

And I dont know what state am i for you,

What i know is that youre someone that is very special for me all the time,

I'm so happy to know you,

Infact youre always be the first page in my book together with my family,

Youre someone that i always chasing after you,

Scared of losing you. . .  

-mza-

The Fonder

The time when im gone, 

The time where im not by your side, 

The time when I didn't contact you, 

To see whether you're chasing after me or not, 

I keep putting hopes, 

Sure you will come after me at any situation, 

Ive waited for times, 

Days to weeks, weeks to months, 

Summer to fall, winter to autumn, 

Keeping my hopes, 

Ive said things not to condemn you neither and away from the sense to detest and loathe you my dear babe, 

Its because i just want you so much and miss you as always, 

To make you realise that you have changed,

And youre just changed,

Im full of grief and grow fonder by days. 

-mza-

Written and drafted ; 1.17pm , in the train to Bahcelievler, friday 16th jan 2015

Get Here - Oleta Adams

You can reach me by railway
You can reach me by trailway
You can reach me on an airplane
You can reach me with your mind

You can reach me by a caravan
Cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here
Just Get here if you can

You can reach me by sailboat
Climb a tree and swing rope to rope
Take a sled and slide down the slope
Into these arms of mine

You can jump on a speedy colt
Cross the border in a blaze of hope
I don't care how you get here
Just Get here if you can

There are hills and mountains between us
Always something to get over
If I had my way, surely you would be closer
I need you closer

There are hills and mountains between us
Always something to get over
If I had my way, surely you would be closer
I need you closer

You can windsurf into my life
Take me up on a carpet ride
You can make it in a big balloon
But you better make it soon

You can reach me by caravan
Cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here
Get here if you can

I don't care, I don't care
I need you right here, right now
I need you right here, right now, right by my side
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah

Yeah yeah, oh
I don't care how you get here
Get here if you can

Cardiac Necrosis

Cardiac Necrosis 

When the cardiac dies,

When the cardiac no longer works as it used to be,

When the cardiac no longer pumping its best loving partner since in the womb-blood,

When the cardiac dies, 

Nothing that we can do,

Trying to save the cardiac organ, 

The major power of the body, 

Tries to give the cardiac it beats, 

When the cardiac dies,

Nothing we can do, 

Calling the best surgeon so save it, 

Sophisticated technology at the sides, 

When the cardiac dies,

Nothing we can do, 

Look up to the sky high above, 

Asking God The Almighty for help,

Save the heart for the last time of chance, 

Asking God The Almighty for help,

To have its life back together with the long love-blood, 

And the answer is,

Millions chances had given,

But that One stopped the cardiac itself, 

Does not take good care of it, 

When the time comes,

When injuries present on the cardiac, 

The heart stops as it used to be,

Its too late, 

Never ask the God Almighty why didn't help,  

Ask yourself what you have done before ask others. 

-mza-

Adele - Hiding My Heart

This is how the story went

I met someone by accident

Who blew me away

Blew me away

And It was in the darkest of my days

When you took my sorrow and you took my pain

And buried them away, buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

You'll disappear one day

So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Dropped you off at the train station

Put a kiss on top of your head

Watched you wave

And watched you wave

Then I went on home to my skyscrapers

And neon lights and waiting papers

That I call home

I call that home

I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

You'll disappear one day

So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Away, yeah

Woke up feeling heavy hearted

I'm going back to where I started

The morning rain

The morning rain

And though I wish that you were here

On that same old road that brought me here

It's calling me home

It's calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you

When the day is done

And wake up to your face against the morning sun

But like everything I've ever known

You'll disappear one day

So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away

I can spend my whole life hiding my heart away